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I got pregnant in Sept/Oct of 2012. The pregnancy was going fine until my father passed away on Feb 26th of 2012 and that's when I went downhill. I would lay in bed all day. I stopped eating and drinking. I was taken to the hospital several times due to dehydration. I was also taken to Psych Emergency Services in Santa Rosa, CA. due to anxiety and panic attacks. I had to move out of my partner Michael's home and in with my mom. She took six months off of work to take care of me. I was sick until I gave birth. Then after the baby was born I got sicker. Immediately after the baby was born I forgot I was ever pregnant. I forgot about the birth. The whole thing was erased from my memory for a brief period. I was in the hospital for five days. After I got home I went straight into the mental hospital. That happened three times. The last time I was in ten days and received ECT. I received 12 sessions of ECT which also affects your memory. I was given this due to the fact that I had med-resistant depression. No one could tell me or my family what was wrong with me. No one gave me a proper diagnosis. I almost lost my daughter because I was so sick. I had to do research to try to figure out what was wrong with me. Closest I can come is pre/postpartum depression with psychotic features. It took me a year to get better. The last hospitalization I was driven by ambulance to the hospital. All of the hospitalizations I would call my mom, asking her to take me home. I had regressed. I would cry in my room, calling out for my mommy. There's a lot more but with the extensive memory loss it's hard to recall. Hopefully I can remember in time.